Day 17: Dear Roe

So today It was an ordinary day. I went to work at the yogurt shop from 1:30 to 5pm about halfway through my shift my mom and sister walked in. I was excited to see them, it was their first time that they came to my work. They went through and got their yogurt and toppings and when they got up to the register they pulled out a stack of letters. I think I my smile went from ear to ear.

Over the next hour I patently awaited my break, I wanted to read them so bad. I walked around just knowing that the letters await me in the front pocket of my apron. When my boss said "do you want to go one break"? I said "yes" before she finished the question.

I ran past all the yogurt machines to the break table. I set the break timer for 10 minutes and I opened all the letters and laid them out so I could read them in order.

I only got around to reading 4 letters on my break. I was so hungry but I couldn't eat because I had to much to read. I was reading so fast that there was no time for tears. After my shift I got some pumpkin flavored yogurt and ran to the car to read the reminding letters. I sat there in the yogurtland parking lot reading these letters crying. People must have thought I was crazy!! Oh well if they knew what was going on they would have understood.

He wrote on 10/12 that he did the victory tower. Below is a picture if Fort Jacksons Victory Tower. This is most likely the tower Ryan used.

He said " I did the "victory Tower" Thats that big obstacle thing that I'm afraid of, Well I did it. It was crazy, the craziest part was repelling down an 80 foot wall. I think by the time i'm done here heights wont bother me."

On 10/4 he wrote that he got his rifle, he named it "war hammer" just in case you were wondering. He says "It's pretty cool except I have to have it with me ALL the time. The only time I can't have with me is when im in the restroom, in the dining hall and in the chapel. So during those times someone has to guard our rifles".

It was so nice to hear from him. Gosh I miss him so much! I am so lucky to be his!

Day 15: RoRo's DIY day # 2

Today after the mail came and I didn't get anything from Ryan I was really really sad. So Janene decided to cheer me up, we went to Wal mart and Micheal's and got stuff to make crafts! I made Christmas Ornaments while Janene painted. My goal in making ornaments is by the time me and Ryan have our own Christmas tree I would love to have some nice handmade ornaments with memory's behind them to decorate it.

I made these Army Ornaments for the obvious reason!

My next set of Orniments was inspired by our engagement

On Surprise RoRo Saturday ryan took me to LA and we visited the Butterfly exhibit at the LA natural history museum. For some odd reason we both enjoyed the beauty of the butterflies so I made some orniments for us to remember them by.

I wanted to make some orniments that display our love of Red & Blue

Ryan and myself have been to different Botanical Gardens so I wanted to make a couple of flowers

All together I made a whoel bunch of orniments, crafts make me happy and it made my night go by really fast!

Thank you Janene for making me smile! I love you!

Day 14: Awaiting Letters

Day 14:

Today it has been 14 days since Ryan has left. I can’t believe it’s been two whole weeks! So far the first week was the easiest and it has been getting progressively harder since. I’m just wondering when that point will come where my sadness will stop growing. I don’t want it to get worse and worse over the next 5 ½ months. I guess this is normal. I wrote to Ryan saying:

So pretty much ever since Sunday I’ve been depressed. I feel like it’s hitting me all at once. I’m kinda Ro-pressed … nothing clinical … just not back to being myself again. But that makes me think. In the bible it says that two shall become one and since we are almost to that stage of marriage do you think its ridiculous to think of us as emotionally one. Either way if you do think so or not that’s how I feel .. I feel like we are one. Which helps me understand why I’m sad. If we are one then technically half of me is missing in you. That makes complete since because that is exactly how I feel. I feel like half of me is missing. That’s pretty much the only way to describe it. God designed you for me so I naturally have a Ryan void in my heart when you are away. I mean I still feel your love because it is so constant but well you know, your going through it too! In this long way I guess I’m trying to say I might not get back to “normal” for awhile. But I promise not to let it get the best of me!

I know Ryan sent out some letters last Thursday so I am anxiously awaiting his letters. Then I will have an address to send him everything I have written. I have about 5 super long 8 + paged letters and a few pictures that I am going to send his way … oh yes and one coloring page.

Day 13: Red, White and No More Blues

Mom found this ice cream at Ralphs and showed me. I'll take it as a sign from God to STOP being sad!

Day 9 RoRo's DIY Day

So yesterday I did a bunch of stuff I've been needing to do .. it was nice being able to check things off the old To Do list! I shall call this RoRo's Do it yourself day!

I cleaned and shampooed all my make up brushes!

I cleaned all my jewelry .. including my engagement ring .. i have cleaned it 4 times since Ryan left.

Cleaned cds/dvds with Toothpaste .. Saw it online .. I would not suggest doing it, my hands still smell minty fresh. But the DVDs do play better.

Made a place to put all my letter/correspondence supply. Lately I have been writing allot of letters to my love, so it's nice to have it all in one place. Yes that is a Planet Earth coloring book, i bought it so I could color something for Ryan. One of my first times over at his house he made me watch on of the Planet Earth DVDs .. I though oh great I'm going out with a nature freak! But it turned out he isn't he just really likes planet earth.

I cleaned some white shoes of mine .. this is the before

After .. used some white out to touch up the sides.

Overall a successful day .. I am looking forward to RoRo's DIY day next week!